TO  my beloved.

I know I love you, but I told you I need go. (Silence)

I like to look at your face, your blue eyes, slim lips and ‘your’ nose,

I like when you smile.

I realized while we were together, it was always you took care of me,

Even though I was so much and always thinking of the possibility to take care of you.

I have imaginations, time will take us to the place where and when you will so much of need me being your side. I could see the pleasure.

Are we both runners? We run away from what we shall change. So much to be afraid of. (Silence, we are doing the best already)

Thank you for caring of me,

Thanks for let me have time with you.

I feel very very happy to be in your arms.

Lie on the sofa,

Watch the movie.

And feel you, and your body.

As much as you care for me, I am in the same way.

Promise you to take care of myself and I will do the best.

I will.

Will you do the same?

I would see you 2 years later, 10 years later, 20 years later, or anytime you want to see me.

Promise me to take care of yourself and being happy.

We both will find the way.

The way being truly happy.

From J,

The one who believes emotional happy is better than the rest. And the one cares for you.

2009-10-25